Thursday, December 28, 2006 No Time At All...

Current mood: exhausted Category: Jobs, Work, Careers Its all really strange. Stepped out on faith and started a new job. Was on the old one for eight years. Talk about comfort zones. *sigh* Im sitting here all alone in this quiet house. Children are at moms. Not feeling like much of a mother. New job keeps me away from home and the children soooooooooooooo much. I miss them. I miss them so much, it feels as though there is a whole in my chest. *tear in eye* I know their being with mom is the best thing right now, but it sure doesnt feel good. Some how I feel as though Ive failed them. Missing my friends just as much. I have one friend in particular that I hung with. We used to eat crabs at least once a week together. She is a fool. She is one of two female friends I have. I think I said it before, but I cant stand chics. Dont want em around me. But thats another blog. I can call her up and say I want to shoot something and dont want to go alone, she will come no questions asked. Only friend I can get to hang in cemeteries with me. Dont get to talk any of my friends these days. Way too busy. Im starting to wonder if this new job is for me. The dollar signs are amazing, but is it worth it when you sacrifice family and friends? One has to ask themselves this. *sigh* I like to look at the big picture and I dont see this changing down the road. My job is demanding and requires lots my time. I spend more time at work, than anything else. Any time I do something, I step out on faith. But right now Im not feeling sure of the changes Ive made. Faith is failing. Things I love the most are in the shadows. I know He is able and in control. I guess right now I need comfort that only He can give. I need to know that Im doing the right things...