Current mood: relaxed 
Another year comes to an end, as a new one begins. I sit here and think about how I whined all year about the job I hated so much. New job, one that will bring many opportunities. Cant believe Im leaving the old job after eight gut agonizing years. Ok, so they all werent bad.
I stand on the tracks and wonder where they lead, as I snap the pictures. Kind of like my life. 2006 was definitely the year of trials and tribulations. Whew lawd! 2007, Im going places. Places I want to go this time. I might stumble and fall, but I will stay on course. 2007 will be the manifestation of so many things, good and bad.....for me, as well as folks I've crossed paths with. Its time to pay ya dues folks, if you havent already. Im gonna start making withdrawals from that heavenly bank.
Another days dawn. I sit it the truck and see the sun appearing. I am thankful. Means I've been given yet another chance, to get it right. I look around and wonder if others are thankful or does it just mean they will have to get up soon. 
I look at my youngins and realize they arent babies anymore. Bre's developing into a young woman. Caught her standing in the mirror talking about her butt is getting smaller, since she left grandmas. She misses her grandma's cooking. Mini me...what can I say about my boy? He is quite the character and growing into a very intelligent comical young man. Boy stays on joke time, but at the same time says the smartest things. 
I think about all the broken promises made to me, as well as the ones I made. *sigh* 
Been thinking about death alot lately. As a matter of fact...my new job needs a copy of my birth certificate. So I was saying to some one that I couldnt find my "death" certificate anywhere. *yikes* What in the hell!? I spend lots of time in grave yards. I find them tranquil. As I look at the graves, I think to myself "here lies your life, make it count so that you may rest in peace." 
Not to mention, during my hard headed phase.....lost opportunities and callings. Im sorry Lord for not listening. Asking for forgiveness now... 
Have you ever took a look at life and wondered what it thinks, when it looks at us? I do it all the time. I do it, when I pass animals and they look back. I do it for sure, when I pass plants/flowers and look at them. Are they looking back at me and what do they think about me? Hmmm... Do they think Im stupid for how I live my life. Do they pity me? Do they envy my free will? 
Was talking to my son one day about pets. Im a huge lover of animals and just about lose it, when I see some one abusing an animal. Really gets my blood boiling. My cats kept hissing, when my son walked into the room, so I figured he had done something to them. Told him that pets are gifts from Yahweh, as companions. We are to love them unconditionally and take care of them. They depend on us and we must protect them. I made him look at the cats and asked him "how can you NOT love that life right there?!" He began to cry. He squatted down and called to the cats and one of them came to him and rubbed up against him. I looked at my mothers dog, during the thanksgiving holiday and thought how blessed she was to have him. Meet Mekeiah. He is nothing but love. I ate him up, while I was down there. He slept with me every night. He likes to crawl into your clothes and snuggle up. Beautiful lil creature. Im thankful for him and know my mother is too. 
Think Imma give this weary old body a rest. Shared it alot this year. Not saying I didnt have fun. Just need to keep my mind on other things.
Things like where Im going and how Imma get there. What I need to get there. And then what Im gonna do, once I make it.
Another year comes to an end, as a new one begins. I sit here and think about how I whined all year about the job I hated so much. New job, one that will bring many opportunities. Cant believe Im leaving the old job after eight gut agonizing years. Ok, so they all werent bad. I stand on the tracks and wonder where they lead, as I snap the pictures. Kind of like my life. 2006 was definitely the year of trials and tribulations. Whew lawd! 2007, Im going places. Places I want to go this time. I might stumble and fall, but I will stay on course. 2007 will be the manifestation of so many things, good and bad.....for me, as well as folks I've crossed paths with. Its time to pay ya dues folks, if you havent already. Im gonna start making withdrawals from that heavenly bank.
Another days dawn. I sit it the truck and see the sun appearing. I am thankful. Means I've been given yet another chance, to get it right. I look around and wonder if others are thankful or does it just mean they will have to get up soon. I look at my youngins and realize they arent babies anymore. Bre's developing into a young woman. Caught her standing in the mirror talking about her butt is getting smaller, since she left grandmas. She misses her grandma's cooking. Mini me...what can I say about my boy? He is quite the character and growing into a very intelligent comical young man. Boy stays on joke time, but at the same time says the smartest things. I think about all the broken promises made to me, as well as the ones I made. *sigh* Been thinking about death alot lately. As a matter of fact...my new job needs a copy of my birth certificate. So I was saying to some one that I couldnt find my "death" certificate anywhere. *yikes* What in the hell!? I spend lots of time in grave yards. I find them tranquil. As I look at the graves, I think to myself "here lies your life, make it count so that you may rest in peace." Not to mention, during my hard headed phase.....lost opportunities and callings. Im sorry Lord for not listening. Asking for forgiveness now... Have you ever took a look at life and wondered what it thinks, when it looks at us? I do it all the time. I do it, when I pass animals and they look back. I do it for sure, when I pass plants/flowers and look at them. Are they looking back at me and what do they think about me? Hmmm... Do they think Im stupid for how I live my life. Do they pity me? Do they envy my free will? Was talking to my son one day about pets. Im a huge lover of animals and just about lose it, when I see some one abusing an animal. Really gets my blood boiling. My cats kept hissing, when my son walked into the room, so I figured he had done something to them. Told him that pets are gifts from Yahweh, as companions. We are to love them unconditionally and take care of them. They depend on us and we must protect them. I made him look at the cats and asked him "how can you NOT love that life right there?!" He began to cry. He squatted down and called to the cats and one of them came to him and rubbed up against him. I looked at my mothers dog, during the thanksgiving holiday and thought how blessed she was to have him. Meet Mekeiah. He is nothing but love. I ate him up, while I was down there. He slept with me every night. He likes to crawl into your clothes and snuggle up. Beautiful lil creature. Im thankful for him and know my mother is too. Think Imma give this weary old body a rest. Shared it alot this year. Not saying I didnt have fun. Just need to keep my mind on other things. Things like where Im going and how Imma get there. What I need to get there. And then what Im gonna do, once I make it.
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