Current mood: pissed off
Boy did a buddy of mine piss me off today and on top of that, my fukkin car broke down. *aaaaaaargh*
A buddy of mine and I were talking about a break up I had recently ok. Well we werent agreeing on how I should have handled the break up. It was his way of thinking or NO WAY! He got loud with me and was over talking me. Now mind you, this is my break up we were talking about. Soooooooo that muthafukka went on to say to me "YOU HAVE TO DECIDE IF YOU WANT TO BE A PIECE OF ASS OR HAVE LOVE." Now Im at work, so I cant go off, like I wanted to. No this muthafukka didnt! *madder than a nest of bullet ants* So I told him he wasnt being fair, he was out of line, I was more than ass, and because somebody doesnt do things his way doesnt make them wrong, and it wasnt his call!!! Some of you may be saying "truth hurts huh." Naw fuggdat! He dont know me like that. He dont get them kind of rights.
Now here is my other problem with this. I wasnt aware that as a single woman out here dating, that my only choices were to be a piece of ass or be in love. I mean somebody help me out here!? I wanna hear from the women really. Thats all I get to choose from? What about going through the motions, if everybody can agree that its ok? How about just having fun, no strings? How about going with the flow and not talking the vibe to death? What if you dont want love? Is that selling yourself short? How about when you just want to screw? So what?! To each their own right? How come men can get down with this kind of thought process and its ok? But when a woman thinks this way, she is selling herself short? I smell bullsheeeeeeeeot!
Let me explain, how I get down. I dont want anything to do with love or connections or attachments or marriage, whatever! My choice right? I live in a box that Im perfectly happy living in. I take the lid off from time to time, I peek out, I let others peek in, I may come out, and if I really like you...you can come in my box for a hot minute. That sounded so nasty. Any who! Im clear with men up front. Tell them if they are looking to get attached, Im not the one. Most say they are ok with this. Some want way more. Some want to change my mind, as things progress. Sometimes down the road, things change and the rules need to be reviewed again and revised as neccessary. Ive been loved by many and have loved some wonderful men. Where are they now? Some are still good friends, others just didnt work out for whatever reason. Ive had engagement rings out the yin yang. Ive had long term relationships. Im faithful, when Im dealing with a man. I dont sleep around. I just want to be able to roll, when the time calls for it. Again, am I selling myself short? Im not lonely. I dont hate men. Love them sumamabeautches! Im not bitter. Im not afraid. Im just not ready to settle down. IM JUST NOT THAT WOMAN! Been saying that for a hot minute and mofo's still wont listen. I got ass, but Im more than a piece of ass. Believe that!!! Got teeth too, wanna see!? *leaving, cussing under bref*
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