So many restless nights. All I've been doing is dreaming. I cant stand it. Im trying to figure out if any of them have been positive. I dont think so. Like for starters...listen to this one!We stop at a gas station for gas. He wants to know if I want anything from inside the store. Sure I do. He smiles at me and goes in. Strange man watching me. He walks by the car and reaches in and steals one of my camera bags and walks off. I start screaming. He comes out the store and says "what!?" I point to the man and say that he has my bag. He runs after him and they disappear into an alley. I cant see them. An hour goes by and he doesnt return. I call the police. They check the alley, to no avail and say they cant do anything. ...oooOOO(fukkin popo for ya) I go to a classmates house and ask if I can crash there, until he returns. She says yes. Suddenly there is a knock at the door. She opens it. He staggers in all bloody and says to me "I got it!" He reaches for me and falls into my arms, taking us down to the floor. OMG! He says to me "he will never take anything from you again!" I open his shirt and see two bullet wounds. I begin to cry. He says to me "dont choo cry, Ill never leave you." I turn to my classmate and tell her to call 911. He touches my hair and face and tells me that he loves me. I sshhhh him and before I can tell him that I love him too, his hand drops. I look down at him and his eyes are open and he is smiling. I know that he is gone though. I hold him tight and start rocking.
I mean dayum, what was that about!? I want no one to die in my arms. =(
Then I dreamed that I was pregnant, by my trifling ex. *uuuugh* I aint got no fukkin pic, to go along with that. Sorry! ~frownin~ Check it out...I give birth to a almond toned baby girl, with big brown eyes, long eyelashes, cutest lil full pink lips, and head full of pretty curly black hair. For some reason, I give her to my folks to keep. My trifling ex finds out and comes to me. He says "this aint right L. Lets go get our baby." So we go to my folks and get her. He takes me and the baby to this flat, overlooking a big city. Was really nice. He gives me a credit card and a butler and tells me to do whatever I want. He leaves for a trip to the DR. Figures! Bastard! He comes back, with all this stuff for the baby. The dream ends with us laying in bed together, naked, holding the baby while I nurse her. WTF!? Let me get on to the next damn dream. *mad* ...oooOOO(when was my last cycle?)___________________________________________________
Then I dream that my folks sell their home and move into one that has no pool. They have a pool right now. I get really pissed off and never talk to them again. Ooooooooooook! Im tripping.
Why did I dream that I was crawling around every friggin where. Why, you ask? Hell if I know. I just know that in my dream, when I came home from work, my cats were walking around on their hind legs. What in the fukk!? *had to spell that out* 
Im crying mad crazy. I fall down to my knees, crying! As I look down at my hands, they are covered in blood. Im crying tears of blood. But then as each tear falls to the ground, a flower grows. *shakin head* I dont know what that means.
Sitting in the window at work, watching the birds fly around in the sky. I admire them. Look at them. One is hovering in one spot, wind beneath his wings. Awesome! I once read somewhere that birds fly, because they dont know they cant. Something like that right. Whatever! Well I think of all Ive been experiencing lately and decide that I want to fly too. I fly into the sunset, never returning... ...oooOOO(I guess not. My crazy ass probably flew into the sun and burned the hell up)
Maybe tonight I can dream about whatever I want. Yeah right! Ill tell you what Id like to dream about... Ive been yearning to sleep on a mans back. No, for real! Stop laughing you guys. Make me sick! I dont wanna sleep in his arms. I dont want no sex. Nothing! Just want to fall asleep on his back. Wow! *sigh* 
I know you guys probably over there laughing at me and saying Im crazy. You dont know the half of it. Be glad I didnt write all of what Ive been dreaming. Myspace would ban me. Oh yeah! Fukk U and U and U and fukk you too! *pointin to whoever is reading this and laughin at me* Peace out, good night!
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