Show Me Where You're Coming From......

Man I used to love this song. I used to sit and wait for the video to come on. I think it came out in 82.

Make Me Over Again.......

I missed so many shots, because I was in awe of the dance. These children really worshiped Yahweh through their dance. I think this video speaks for itself!

Sunday, April 20, 2008 Panoramic Part 1

Current mood: creative

Category: Art and Photography

Here are some Panoramics I played around with this weekend. Was fun to shoot and create. So many more I will be doing. I love churches. We have some beautiful ones here in MD.

Thursday, March 06, 2008 Sick As Heeeeeeeeyall.........

Current mood: stressed Category: Life Its been 8yrs and now I have the flu. On top of that, I have bronchitis. Everything hurts from my hair on my head, to the bottom of my feet. Ive been tip toe'n around, looking like a scare crow. It hurts to even sit on the toilet. Ive missed 3 1/2 days of work this week. Talk about stress. Its the last month of the fiscal year and one must make quota. If I dont make quota, I wont have a job next month. I rather leave on my own, than to be let go. *sigh* I really hate that job. The money is the only thing that has kept me there. I just called off my relationship and dont have a clue why. I mean, I gave him some excuses to why I wanted out. Just as I dismiss him, the words escape my mouth. Talk about an emotional moment. He looks at me and says "you cant rethink this?" Rethink it? Hell I dont know what I was thinking in the first place. My feet just have a need to run. Its in me. He did one tiny little thing and I ran with it. I normally have no problems with my break ups, but this one feels bad inside. I cant escape the look in his eyes, before he kissed me and left. Hurts like hell, but it is what it is. *shrug* Wait a minute! What is it??? Hey maybe its all just a dream. Its the fever. No, that damn Robitussin!!!

Tuesday, January 08, 2008 Fire........weekend highlights

Current mood: thankful Category: Life

Monday, October 15, 2007 Love The Kids..........

Current mood: relieved Category: Life Lord ham mercy! I decided to shoot a birthday party this past weekend. What in the world was I thinking!? It wasnt the children that was the problem. They were all beautiful, well mannered and lots of fun. It was the adults, that were working my nerves. They were bumping and not respecting my equipment. Some were rolling their eyes. One lady kept walking in front of me and putting her butt in my face. Then there was this one woman that was jumping in every picture. Now Im giving direction and making it very clear who Im photographing.......mind you I was paid up front to photograph the birthday boys. This woman was telling me what to shoot and grabbing up every single body and telling to snap the picture. Pookie, Ray Ray, Bumquisha and nem.......Cuum on! Ooooooooooh gaaaaawd! I was disgusted. And then she was like "you gotta email me them pictures." I thinks not! I dont do free lady. Only pictures that will come out, will be the ones the mother of one of the birthday boys paid for. Period!!!!!!!!!!! The rest can make an appt and we can go from there. Black folks! Cant do business with em. *frowning* So any ways. Here are some samples of the party. Those babies were so friggin cute. I was soooooooo tired at the end. I was on my feet all day and chasing children. Still didnt get all the shots I wanted. So many heads in the way and children dont take direction well. Just gotta let em do what they want and shoot it. *suckin teefs* Oh did I mention the clown? She scuurred me! And Im glad I made it out of there, without jackin up a parent. *suckin teefs*

Sunday, September 30, 2007 Hard Days End...

Current mood: stressed Category: Jobs, Work, Careers Mom having those two heart attacks, really made me stop and think for a minute. We almost lost her in September. I need to slow down and think about whats truly important in my life. Been working really hard lately. Mostly catch up. Sat down and figured out how much I need to make at work to survive and enjoy life. Did two low down and dirty deals last week. Had to drop my draws at the ninth hour, which means I didnt make any money on them. Cannot afford to do business that way anymore. Kind of sour with my boss, for making me give the deals away. Board credit for him/company, nothing for me. All in the name of winning the business. And one of the customers is an asshole asshole asshole. You'll hear that echo? Since Im still sour about the deals, I will be ignoring my boss this coming week. We wont be joking around or anything else for that matter. Son of a bitch! *had to spell that one correctly* Im always on the grind. Was sitting in my cubical last week around 7pm, as the sun began to set. Always carry my camera with me. I pulled it out and went and sat on the ledge in the window. Have a great view in my office. I looked out at the areas's I cover in my territory. Buildings for miles. They seem endless. Im only one person. How can I conquer the world, if I cant even conquer some towns? *wanting to pull out hair* I have to change the way I work. Work smart and not hard. Starting to feel burnt out. I want to close the deals I want to close. Tired of closing deals to make quota. I wanna do more than make money. Yeah making money is very important. I want to create relationships with my customers that last and bring in new referrals. This all cant be in vain. Have to find the meaning of it all. Sometimes I think Im running in the same spot over and over again. Lord help me?!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007 Why In The Fukk........

Current mood: Madder Than A Nest of Fire Ants... Category: Life ...do our children always tear our stuff up??? If I have to replace one more friggin vacuum cleaner, somebody fitna get seriously hurt around here!!! Its my daughter's responsibility to vacuum around here right. Well she has broken three vacuums, including the new one. Im disturbed right now. I bought this vacuum because she destroyed the last one. Well I go to use this one, I rarely do. And it wont suck and its throwing dirt all over the friggin place. I got to coughing and gagging and turned it off and ran. Yeah I ran! *rollin eyes* Well I get my breath and come back to investigate. I take the thing apart, from the filter to its innards. I find rocks and all kinds of stuff that child knows she isnt supposed to vacuum up. When she gets back from her grandmothers, Imma jack her slam up. *biting fist* These dang kids! They always breaking my stuff! *cussin under bref* I cant wait til they turn 18 and get the fukk out! *pissed*

Tuesday, June 19, 2007 Its Hotter Than.......

Current mood: hot Category: Blogging Its hotter than a tick on the backside of a burnt dogs balls! I aint lyin! Thought I saw the devil sitting in the shade. So now you guys come with your best "its hotter than's." Lets see what cha got! *jeopardy clock tickin*

Saturday, May 26, 2007 They say...

Current mood: determined Category: Life They say we are a direct result of all that we've feel/felt and think/thought... How true do you think this is? Lets take a look at me shall we? *clearin throat* I used to feel, when I was a young girl, that I didnt need a man and I would get one just to have babies and get rid of his ass. Well guess what? I have two children, no man, and am a single parent. I used to think that a man couldnt know who I was, unless I was sharing my body with him. Now I can hardly stand to deal with a man, unless we are having a tantric experience. He has to shut the F up and get naked. If he is doing more than that, I gotta go. Now... I feel like I am alone(not lonely damnit). And I spend almost every spare moment I have by myself. And I dont mind. I actually like it. I feel like I may never get married. No pity party. If thats my fate, ok. So when anything resembling a serious relationship comes along, I gotta sabotage it. Betta to cut my losses early, than to lose it later right. *shrug* I think I dont have enough money. And guess what? I dont! Have had that thought for a long time. Been broke for a long time too. This one, I may be able to turn around though. I figured out that I need 50K more a year than I make now, to do the things I want/need to. Now I gotta go get it. I think my job is tough as heeeeeeeyall! And guess what? I get burned out and overwhelmed and think about quitting every week. But this can turn around too. The money is a huge motivation, when I think about quitting. Whew! Man I was going somewhere with all of this and I just got sleepy as hell and feel that rambling syndrome coming on. I better quit while Im ahead. But before I go...what does all this mean to me right now? Ive been going back over my thoughts and feelings and realized that Ive been in my own damn way all this time. Its my own fault I dont have what I need or that Im not where I should be in life. I started a business plan with what should be business goals right. Well it turned personal as all get out. I gotta get out of my own way and get some things done. Im such a coward. Yeah I said it. Doesnt mean any of you mofo's need to co-sign either. Some one I greatly dislike called me a wondering generality. Whew the truth hurts. Im going to bed, before I write a book. Im sleepy.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007 Billy Fukkin Blanks...............

Current mood: exhausted Category: Life Wheeeeeeeeeew Jeeeeeeeesuz! Every one was tellin me about how his tapes are tough and you cant last past three minutes, some five right. Well I got buck ass nekkid and put in a tape. I have the one with his greatest moves on it. Mind you I didnt stretch first. I just broke down and did the damn thing. I was kickin and scratchin and bitin and yellin and swingin and sweatin and cussin. Like to knocked my baby out. She was standing too close. Damn near kicked over the ironing board. Im just sayin. Well what I wanted to say was........I made it to 14 minutes. I cut that 'ish off right there and tried to find my heart. It was somewhere deep in my pelvis. Im still tryin to figure out how it got down there. And why my legs so drawn up, they look all bowed legged. I cant stand up straight. Dont think Im wearing hills to work tomorrow. Fuggdat! Billy crazy as hell. Thats ok though. Imma meet up with him again tomorrow night. Im tryna work some stuff out. Shyt! Im tired. Im going to bed, while I can still climb into it.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007 Serenity...

Current mood: thankful Category: Life Been home on bed rest, for last two days. Just overwhelmed and overworked. Funny thing is, I got to cook dinner both nights. I havent prepared a meal in my home during the week, in AAAAAAAAAAGES! Whew! It was great to prepare it, sit down with my child, talk, and enjoy the meal. And for her to tell me that she missed it. *sigh* I always keep food available in the house that she can prepare. She cooks pretty good. But nothing beats a home cooked meal by mom. I have to find a way to make time for that. I miss it too...

Monday, April 16, 2007 Im tired...

Current mood: tired Category: Jobs, Work, Careers Im tired!!!!!! Thats all the F I gotta say........

Saturday, March 10, 2007 No More Chicago...

Current mood: sleepy Category: Jobs, Work, Careers Whew Jeeeeesuz! Im so glad to be home. I got back to MD so late this morning. You dont even wanna know. Chicago is one hour behind us. I was supposed to leave that mofo at 7:30pm on Friday. Mind you class was over at 2pm. Why did the van pick us up and drop us off at the airport. I was like "what the heeeyall we supposed to do at the airport all dang day?!" So any ways. I read, talked, rolled my eyes at folks who kept looking at me-dayum, walked around, whatever! Airport was soooooooooooooo friggin crowed. All of us were at different airline gates and flying out at different times. Was crazy. I was so sleepy. Every friggin time Id look up at the board, time was being tacked onto our departure. *pissed* I ate, got my boots shined, walked around some more. *shrug* Got back late late late. Stayed with "him," because he stayed close to the airport and I didnt want to try and drive an hour and a half home at that hour. Its so good to be back on my turf. I still havent been home yet. Im at my friends house, the one who kept my daughter for me. Came to get my child, ended up going out to eat and eating too much. Got my pj's on and decided to hang at my friends for the night. Ill get home eventually. Oh yeah! I gotta go back to that crappy place Easter weekend, for another week. *pissed*

Thursday, March 08, 2007 Friggin Chicago II

Current mood: pissed off Category: Jobs, Work, Careers Ok so I havent been doing this daily, like I said I would. Been too busy and too cold. I hate this place. I finally made it to the city last night, but that sucked too. Went way too late. It was colder than a witches cooty! I took a few shots,but nothing I care about. Food was great. I had some wonderful calamari. I could eat that every single day. We took the hotel van to the train, then the train to this fake azz union station kind of thing. Then a cab here and there. Cab drivers are crooks. Cab stops and you see one price and then all of a sudden it jumps up a couple bucks. One cab drive jumped back like he was terrified of us, so we didnt get in that cab. The jumpy ones might bust a cap in you, if they feel threatened. *rollin eyes* And this particular one was big and scary looking. We should have been afraid. So then we are back on the train, its really late at this point. I didnt get to hit the gym or hot tub or study. So we call a cab while on the train. Its not there, when we get there. So we are standing at the train station all late and its freezing and dark and unfamiliar. One cab pulls up and says he cant take us. Oooooooooooook! So I cant feel my feet or lips or finger tips. I had to pee so badly that I couldnt walk. Oh my gawd! Cant be mad at nobody but myself. I didnt want to go in the first place, but was told I was selfish and should go. *wry facial expression* So now Im up, stomach is tore up from the floor up, cant eat, and got bags under my eyes bigger than Oprahs bank account. Eyes all red. Im so sleepy that I could cry. Oh hush! Im whining, so what! *arms folded* I can promise you that I wont leave the hotel tonight. Oh did I mention that my room mate is cigarette smoking, loud mouth, crack head, high strung, wired alcoholic? She smoked in my room and stays out really late. Chic is insane. *frowning* Any who! Van gonna be here soon to take us to class. I guess Ill close for now. Fukkin Chicago! Blaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Sunday, March 04, 2007 Flat, raggedy, cold ass Chicago...

Current mood: cold Category: Jobs, Work, Careers Its colder than a witch's dried up cooty here. Daaaaaaaaang! Im still waiting on my roommate. She should have been here already. I took the bed by the window and put my clothes in the top drawer. *hehehe* Clothes are hanging in the closet and all. Hanging out in a co-workers room. We supposed to be studying. As you see, Im up on here typing and he is just a talking, reading, and what not. Lawd I sure hope I dont flunk the entry test. If you do, they put your tail on a plane back home that same day. *gulp* Time is off by an hour. Im yawning and crap. I got a nap on the plane, but Im still sleepy. I have no plans of going out and seeing crap. Too friggin cold. *shiverin* Oh yeah! Got some cool black male pictures of my boss in a hot tub. Then he had the nerve to crawl over this wall with his butt crack showing. Uh! Was quite the sight. So any ways. Been here all day just hanging around the hotel. Will be writing daily, to let you guys know whats going on out here. Im ready to go home already. *suckin teefs*

Monday, January 15, 2007 The Warmth of His Hands...

Current mood: anxious Category: Romance and Relationships Been spending lots of time with him. Why are we so drawn to whats forbidden? I often wonder if I had met him under different circumstances, would I be this attracted/drawn to him? I say no, but one never knows. We've taken so many walks in the city, late at night. He loves to hold hands. I love it too. Been a long time, since a man has held my hand. We talk about so many things. And he will stop walking and kiss me, as if its the end of the world. During our walk, I began to get really sleepy. I was stumbling and saying all kinds of crazy stuff. He laughed at me. He laughs at me a lot. So we decided to walk back to the car and call it a night. It was sooooooo late. Like two or three in the morning kind of late. He always keeps me out late. I dozed off in the car. I was wearing a long skirt that went to my feet, no stockings, short socks, boy shorts, and knee high boots. I felt his hand in my lap. Just touching my leg as all. He began to move his hand around and pulled back my skirt slightly. I didnt move or open my eyes. As he searched, his warm hands made contact with my flesh. Put a slight smile upon my face. He rubbed the outer thigh, a knee, and then behind the knee. There, behind the knee, he tucked his hand and left it there. Deeper into my slumber I fell, with his hand tucked nicely behind my knee. Then I felt his hand leave my leg. My legs began to get cold. I yearned for his touch again... I readjusted my legs and shifted around in the seat. Never did open my eyes. I reached for his hand, until I found it. I took it and put it under my skirt, right between my thighs. I wanted to open my eyes, to see the look upon his face. I didnt. Didnt even smile. He grabbed my inner thigh so tightly. I loved it. He wasted no time exploring my legs. He took his finger tips and put them just inside the rim of my boots. Kind of tickled. *giggle* He felt my calves, knees, outer thighs. He even went up to my hip, which kind of took my breath away. But it was when he slid his hand inside my thighs, that I got butterflies in my stomach. But before he could remove his hand, I opened my thighs slightly to welcome him. He moved it up further, slowly. Uummm... He made contact with my candy center. He didnt enter though. He just moved his hand around, as to explore/admire its contour. The fact that he didnt pull my pannies aside, was even more exciting. I was so turned on. Didnt want him to take his hand away. When he took me home, we parked and began to kiss again. Such passion. He put his own hand under my skirt this time. He kept brushing against it. I aint gonna lie.......I wanted him to slide a finger or two up in there. *sigh* I know I need to stay away from this man, but I sure can hardly wait to see him again......