Current mood: indescribable
Forgiveness is to give up resentment against or the desire to punish; stop being angry with.
Forgiveness is the mental process of ceasing to feel resentment or anger against another person for a perceived offence, difference or mistake, or ceasing to demand punishment or restitution.
I sit here at this pc, with so many conflicting emotions. Some one I love dearly has hurt me deeply. Im angry, hurting, confused, yet still longing for them. I miss things like their laugh, funny little sayings they have, the way they smell, their touch, the way they chew when they eat, the softness of their skin, the way they stand, when they tell me to hush because Im silly, or when they say "ooooh gaaaawd" because Ive done something crazy. I say to that person "how dare you put me in this place of hurt!" Some may say I put my own self here. I beg to differ. The only thing Im guilty of, is loving some one unconditionally.
Now Im at that fork in the road of moving on and forgiving. I say Im moving on, but I miss them. I say I forgive, but I still want to gouge their eyes out. Some one said that true forgiveness is putting yourself out there again, to possibly be hurt again by that person. Something about not being afraid of that. I may not have the words exact, but it was something to that effect. *shrug* True forgiveness for me is gonna come at the moment that I stop allowing this love to kill me, from the inside out. That I have not figured out how to do yet.
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